Goals-short term

Every one has goals, whether they put that into term or not. Whether they be short term or long term. Goals are. Good thing to have, and re-evaluate them every so often. Check off the ones you've completed & add new ones, see how far away from one you may be, or to see if you've lost track completely. That's my problem. I loose track or loose focus. Which, is not a very good thing. I let life get in the way, and I shouldn't. I have three main focus in my life. My spouse, my kids & myself. I usually put myself last, but not anymore. My health is important. I usually neglect my husband due to my kids, and honestly that's a terrible mistake. Think about it, if you & your spouses relationship isn't right, how are you teaching your kids anything? (Just my opinion) My kids always want me. I'm the favorite when it comes to my husband & I. I believe most stay at home moms would agree. They are with me, always, I'm the one during the day that gets them what they need, want & so much more. But, that needs to change. They need to see that daddy loves them just the same & is here for them too. Straying from topic, my apologizes- goals. I wanted to write out my goals & share them with my readers. Gain some encourgement, opinions & feedback. So- here it goes. 

My fitness goal- I've always been overweight. I used to eat when I was sad, board, or just thought I was hungry. I had this obsession I guess, with eating. None of it was healthy, no portion control, no cares- nothing! No one ever knew my true weight. I always got teased in school. It bothered me, but I never saw anyone that truly cared about their body so I thought, "this is it; I'll be like this forever" I got married, had 3 beautiful, handsome sweet boys- my biggest was 8 pounds 9 ounces & that was my first! My last was 8 pounds 4 ounces & Gabriel was my smallest, at 7 pounds 9 ounces... This year, I found Advocare! I found out, I don't have to always eat, or eat unhealthy, and water is super yummy! I'm just over 2 weeks soda free, and I'm so happy! I've lost an inch in 4 areas, so four inches in all & I've lost 2 pounds! I have a few goals in my fitness area- to be a size 14 before Isaiah's 1st birthday. I have 4 months! I can do this! To go a full month with no soda! I'm two weeks down, only 2 more to go!! & to work out 5 days a week to the Thirty Day Sherd, because I need a structured routine to keep me going (day 1 complete) These may seem simple to some, but to me, these things aren't easy, and don't come easy to someone who's overweight. I want to be a healthy mom, not just a fit mom, but healthy & I want to show my kids that being healthy is easy, and rewarding! Next....

My wifely goal- I would like to read Gods word every morning with my husband. Pray every morning with him, before he goes to work, and make us breakfast at least 5 days a week. I would like to show him that I can handle my household duties & my workout duties no problem. I would like for him to see in my actions that I love him & I want to encourge him more. I want him to know every day that I'm proud of him. I want to pack his lunch every morning and put little love notes in it or encouging words in it. I want to wake up with him every morning without being grumpy. I want to kiss him at least 3 times a day! I want him to feel like he's the luckiest man around. 

My kids- let's start with Isaiah, he's simple for now. Isaiah needs a structure(ish) schedule. I want to feed him 3 times a day if he lets me along with his nursings. I want to read to him at least twice a day, and I want to pray with him twice a day. Gabriel, I want to sit down with him twice a week and work on letter recognition, saying his abcs not singing & coloring. I want to teach him scriptures, during these times & pray with him. I want to read to him several times a day & cut out the television. I want to encourge active play, & really how he learns. I want to be more aggressive with potty training & have him potty trained before he's 3- I have four months. Elijah, I want to sit down with him 3 times a week work on writing, sight words, and numbers-writing them & counting higher. I want to teach him Gods word & pray with him twice a day, and read to him as well. I'd like to start morning walks after breakfast & cut out television with him too. I want to make it a rewards system. I want to teach him responsibly- just haven't figured that one out yet.

I know this may seem like a lot, but if I get up with Matthew, do my workout, eat breakfast & do my daily housework, being able to focus on the boys after they wake up, will come easy. Will I be tired? Yes! Lately I've been going to bed shorty after 8:30, but it's been great! I think I can do this. I will update on my progress in a week, and we'll see how much I actually did. I know my first week will be rough, and maybe even my second week, but I'm determined to do this! I love my family, and myself and I want some changes happening in this house! 

Elijah can write his name 

Sweet Isaiah 7.5 months 

Gabriel can take naps, when he's super tired 😉

Isaiah 41:10 So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.

The Struggle

I never thought I would be typing this, but everyone struggles with something, and my struggle happens to be a few things. I'm struggling loosing weight. It just doesn't seem to want to go. It breaks my heart. Many have no clue how much it depresses me, or affects my every day life. Not many people know how much I weight, and I guess I'm at weight where I'm stuck and I'm going to have to work super hard for it to go. I hear people say, it's not the number on the scale that matters, but what they don't understand is, it does matter! It matters because it's super unhealthy. I get that inches count, but I haven't noticed any inches lost. I get "you need to make sure you're hydrated" "You need to make sure you're eating enough" "workout 5 days a week and rest 2" I'm doing it all! I'm kicking butt and taking names! I'm way more active now than I was two weeks ago. I'm eating healthier, and haven't had soda in 11 days- which is a huge accomplishment! But, good news is, I'm happier now than I was two weeks ago, I have more energy now, and I'm getting much better sleep at night! Wanna know my secret? Just ask me!

Now, I'll give you an update on the boys!

Elijah is wilder and crazier than ever! I'm not even kidding! He's lying, he's being mean, says he doesn't want to play, and he'd rather watch tv! I swear he thinks he's 14-15 years old! Its driving me batty! I can't wait until he starts school! It will give us both a much needed break from each other! He's getting taller and slender! He's super strong! He can write his name, and knows all his letters and can recognize them all! He knows 0-10 and can count up to 12. We're working on past 12. He knows all his colors! He's a great big brother! He loves helping me with Isaiah! He loves trying to help Gabriel potty train! He is truly an amazing helper, he just needs an attitude adjustment, and needs to learn that lying is bad.

Gabriel is huge! He's 33 pounds & pretty short for his age, but you'd never tell. He's in 3T shirts and 2T bottoms. His blonde curly hair is to die for! Everyone just loves it! He's known for getting himself hurt. This past weekend he dove into concrete TWICE with his head! He didn't let it stop him though! Tough little man! He also copies every single thing Elijah does! His most annoying trait lately! He eats and eats and eats, but when it comes to supper time, he most of the time refuses to eat. He's almost potty trained, but still has some improvement to make, but I think he's doing great!

Isaiah is tiny! His last weight check he had lost weight, can I loose weight? No one would question it. haha! He's 7.5 months old! He's wearing 3-6 & 6 month clothes. He's 95% cloth diapered, he wears disposables to church. He crawls, pulls up on everything, and even walked the couch yesterday! He nurses on average 4-5 times a day, and eats 4 jars of food a day- usually. He also eats cheerios, and finger foods! He loves feeding himself! He loves to go on walks in the ergo, he's never been on a stroller ride, yet! He is very attached to me lately, which is kinda hard. If I'm in the kitchen he'll cry and crawl all the way too me. He doesn't like for me to put him somewhere and me not be in sight. But, he's a sweet boy! He has awesome cuddles, and loves to be sweet!

Time for me to go make some yummy dinner so we can go on a walk later! I hope you enjoyed my blog. Nothing special, but I took the time to write it.

I know God is always with me.