God knows i"m not spoild. When it comes to my marriage, I had this whole fairy tale marriage all planned out. I thought I had everything worked out. My husband was going to work normal hours, be off every weekend, we were going to go to church, have 2 kids, live in a nice house, he was going to get me everything I wanted, we were going to have a newer modle car. I didn't want to be rich, but well off. Well, like I said, God knows I'm not spoiled. I don't get everything I want. Life isn't always what you want. Yes, I love my husband, and yes I love that he has a job. I am very thankful for all the things that I have. Some girls just don't care. They want the best, Me,. I can settle with, not this time, you're going to have to wait. Do I like hearing those words? No, of course not, who does? But it's life. I know that my husband loves me, and tried his best to get me the things that I want. A lot of the times he goes out of his way to please me, and I take it for granted. I don't look at it that way sometimes. Like this way. Real life example; This week he got his green rope. I was so happy for him. I know he studied really hard for that, and his voice sounds terrible because he has to command flights, but he did what he had to do, well This is his first weekend on phase 3. I was looking forward to him spending the night. Well I get a text telling me to come and get him, I was all excited I hopped in the car, and got all the way there, and he called and said the CQ was on lock down, he couldn't leave until some guys got back. Ok, I was fine with that. I knew I had all night with him, then he layed the news on me, that he signed up for CQ duty and had to be back by 10pm. This is what went through my head: WHAT? are you nuts? This is what came out of my mouth: What? Why? You knew I was looking forward to this weekend. This isn't fair! Why did you do this? Well we got off the phone, and texted while I waited, and knew I was upset, but how I handled it was not right. So, he was upset with me. Long story short, I thought he wa just thinking of himself, and I posted it on facebook. I knew I shouldn't have, but I did anyways, so that everyone could see I was mad. But, he's not doing it for himself, well he kind of is, but its for his job. It looks better if your a rope... Snd the higher up you get the better. So, he wants his yellow.
The whole point of this, is to show that I love him, and that I would never want to trade him in. Yes we may fight, and bicker, but at the end of the day he's the one I married, and mad that ulitmate choice. I have to stick by his side, I have to show him I care, and that most of all that I love him no matter what. Yes we have a maturity difference, we always will, I try my best to get on his level, and stay there, but I can't. It's not my nature. I act like a little brat, a lot, but he knows what buttons to push to put me back in my place. He's amazing. No other guy could know me like he does. I wouldn't want no other guy too. He's made a choice to stick by my side, no matter what i do, what I say, no matter how inmature I act, but I do know when to shut up, I do know when I just need to keep my thoughts.. thoughts.
We got married on a Sturday morning on Nov 10, 2007. We both were young... I was really young. We though we try and push aside all the horrible things people said, we thought we were in love. We both will tell you, til this day we thought we were in love. We had no idea what we were getting ourselves into. We have learned to love each other. We do however know that God did want us to get married, not when we did, but we are suppose to be together. We know we still have a lot to learn. You never stop learning about your spouse. I could say I know everything about him, but I don't. And for me thats ok. I want to learn more and more everyday. I know what makes him tick, and I know how to get on his nerves.
The most important thing is I love him, more today then I did the day we got married. We have made the choice that Divorce is no where in our vocabulary. We don't like the word, and we don't like what it does to families. I've seen with my two eyes what it does, and it's not good. I'm not saying that when you get married if your husband beats you or is cheating on you to not divorce him, but... cheating, see if you can find out why? And if it contiunes, put a stop to it, leave him, but beating, don't think twice, get out of there. But for stupid reasons like, "he/she changed" what ever. Everyone changes, "we don't see eye to eye" why not? Did you when you got married? What happened? talk about it.... Sorry divorce is may hot topic, I can rant and rave on it all day long.
Well I hope you enjoyed this one, I enjoyed writing it. I'll be back with some more soon!
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