Chicken Fried

Well i was raised in the south. Almost as south as you can get. I hail from Georgia. And I don't regret any day living there. I was raised eating fried chicken, fried okra, and drinking sweet tea. I went to flea markets, and went to Wal-Mart. We also shopped in Salvation Army, and Goodwill, I didn't see anything wrong with it. It was my normal. When I was about 10 I was still wearing overalls, and I didn't see anything wrong with it. I was raised listening to country and that was it. Like there was nothing else to listen too, now that i think of it, I wasn't sheltered. I saw my parents struggle with money problems, and saw them fight. I saw my dad punish all of my siblings, but I could tell that it was differnt between my blood brother and myself. I was raised in the bible-belt states. I didn't get to church often like I should, but I was under the influance of my parents. They were to take care of me, and we just didn't go to church often. When we did, it was awesome. I loved going, and learning, meeting new friends, and just having a good ole time. I was raised saying yall, ma'am and sir. I was raised with black people, as far as the eye could see. I have no problem with hillbillies, rednecks, or black people. Some of my closest friends in Georgia are rednecks/hillbillies and black! I was rasied differnt from lots of people. I mean I really thougth that a lot was spelled alltogether! LOL! School systems in the south aren't the best, but in Georgia, they are probably the worse. Test scores there are awful, they have came up, but not by much. The south to me, is as far up to N.Carolina, and as far over as Kentucky and Arkansas and Louisiana, but everyone else are Yankee's or Westen! HAHA I know that it's not right, but thats just what I think. I know that the south goes all the way up to Maryland! Which sounds crazy right? To me it does! I do know that there are some crazy redneck people up in Penn. and Even in New York!  But, anyways, on more about how I was rasied.

My parents shopped every years for us kids (6 kids) at Wal-Mart for school. We got all our clothes and supplies there. I remeber asking my dad one year, when I was about 15 if we could go to the mall to shop, he told me I was crazy, he didn't have the money to be spending $50 bucks on a pair of jeans, and that was the end of it. I wasn't spoiled. I knew my parent's couldn't afford to pay for my college, I knew that they couldn't afford to buy me 150 dollar purse, even if I pitched a fit for it. (which, if I ever came across one that cost that much I was ask myself who needs one that cost that much anyway?) I was perfectly happy with wal-mart clothes, and if my friends didn't like my clothes, then they aren't real friends.

I know there are some people out there that just have to have the finner things in life, because that's what mommy and daddy spoiled you with, but guess what? If you don't have a trust fund, or some hidden away money, then your going to have to work for those things. And your going to have to work your butt off for it. Right now, with our moeny, I think I can keep on buying wal-mart things, and not make a big deal out of it. I don't care who I run across in wal-mart, i know there are really hard working people out there that have no other place to shop at, other then wal-mart.

Love is a battlefeild

Looking for a place to live at Whiteman AFB is kind of hard, but I know the right place will come up, when the time is right. I have so many thoughts on this. Apartment or a House? Duplex or not? I've kind of came up with an answer to these. I would like to live in a house, other then anything else. I need to call the housing office back and see how long the wait is again. I'm dreading that. I'm scared she might say something like 1 year. Which I guess since I"m looking for off-base housing now then it wont be such a big deal. who knows?

All I know is that I"m having mixed thoughts about things that are going on right now; with my mom, I heard you ask, thought I would tell ya. She thinks I must be stupid or something. She gets on my dad's facebook, and does things that I know that he can't do. Tags her in photos of mine, and she sent me a friends request yet again. I mean come on! She can't even applogize for calling me a lair, and saying that my word is basically crap. There is no way I will put her back on my facebook life again. I can't trust her. She hurts me, then she thinks it's ok. Well guess what? It's not. You don't treat family like trash. Throw them away then expect them to come back. Maybe some of you can accept your family doing this to you, but I can't. I'm not a floormate. You can't walk all over me, then try and wash me. No way...

Well, today is one of those days. Liz left. Which made me sad. Know I'm all alone, and all I have is movies to keep me company. Expet until Erin gets here! Then I will be happy! And when Matthew comes over for the weekends. That will make me happy too! I don't know. Things right now just seem so... whats the word? ... Hard? Seem so out of place, and if it wasn't for Matthew talking me down, and helping me out, I would go nuts. Like I said last night, I live in my mind a lot. I get that from my Mother she does it, and thinks it's ok, and so do I, but it's not ok. No one is a mind reader. You can't expect anyone to be. God gives us gifts, but not the gift to fly, or to read minds.

Well, right now, I've got Matthew on the brain, and I just want to get me something to drink, lay down and watch a movie. It's really cold outside. BBRRR..... so, I'm going to stay inside, stay warm, and have a relaxed chilling day!
God bless you all!

Somtimes I thank God for Unanswered Prayers

Well today has been a PJ day. It was great. I'm so tired, and I can't wait until get some alone time with Matthew. Today has been a grrr day too. Like anything ticks me off. Girls get like that sometimes. And I just want to hear nice things. I miss not having Matthew everyday. Exodus was great. I miss it. I miss not being able to sleep beside him. Right now I'm just so emotional, I don't think there will be much to today's blog. I just wish I could not be. I want to be normal, there is no such thing as normal. And I know this, but.. I don't know. Right now i can't even put my thoughts on paper. And it sucks. I took a bubblebath, and it didn't help, thats how much stress I have on me right now. I'm sick of stress and drama. I just want everyone to like everyone, and I jsut wish I was a queen and everyone said great and wonderful things to me. I don't know. I live in my head a lot. I wish I could have a lot of things, and I know I can, but Matthew and I have to work up to those things. Money right now is such a stresser. I don't even like to think of our money problems, but the thoughts appear somehow, and it just makes my mood worse. I hate it when people think you make a lot of money just because your military. You make less money then a civi. I know Matthew thinks about this a lot, but he doesn't show it like i do. Which I wish I didn't show it, but i'm a female, what can I say? Well I think I'm done for now. Leave me some love! Thanks! :)

Unanswered Prayers is a Garth Brooks song. It's country and it's from the 90's. IT's great. It ties in wtih my blog, because I pray about some of these things, and I thank God because if he would have answered all of these prayers, I propably hate the outcome. I know that Matthew and I go through these trails to learn, and I'm so thankful for that! Praise God! :)

God blessed the broken road..

Man do I love chocolate.. I just made a pudding pie. Simple yet so yummy. I haven't had any of it yet, I'm at least going to wait until tomorrow to eat any of it. :) I love the whipped cream. So light and fluffy and yet so yummy and fating. Well on a harder note..

Matthew and my dad got into it tonight, well had it out on facebook. LOL! It was funny yet sad. Thank God I was on the phone with Laura or else I might had been in tears. My own parents were saying I was a lair and trying to tell Matthew he couldn't trust my word. My own family, wait family doesn't say that about there kids, They had disowned me for the last time. I will pray for them, but thats all I have to do. Matthew stuck up for me, and finally told my father that if they wanted to play this game and not like there own daughter, disown her, and talk horrible about her, then he'll make it to where they will never see me AGAIN, there is no sence in me going through this every year. He told my father that he doesn't understand, because all I (Mandy) do is talk good about them, and even when something like this happens I talk about the good times. They didn't want to hear that. It really does upset me, because Matthew has to be put in the middle of this. But the way he stuck up for me, just made me feel like a queen. His queen. It shows me several things about Matthew that I don't normally see. He does love me, which i've known that for a while now, that he doesn't care who's talking bad about me, he's going to say his mind, that he is also tired of my parents treating me like crap. Which was the whole reason we got married. (thats another blog though) My parent's have just really amazed me this time. If they want to be this way, then I guess I'll have to deal with it.

I realized something earlier. This is my mom's thrid marriage, and I always have considered him my dad, (since the man that gave me his DNA wants to have nothing to do with me) I've always said I was his little girl, but know this person is calling me a lair and being a stranger to me. None of the men my mom has been with has loved me. Matthew is the guy that has shown me true love. He's here with me when I'm hurting. He sticks up for me. He doesn't hit me. He doesn't abuse me in other ways. He's the only love I know. I just realized that. Which goes with my title. Gos has blessed the path that lead me to him. God gave me Matthew to protect me, to help me, to love me, and to be my husband. God helped us get married, and has helped us with our families. God protect us when we struggle with one another, and always reminds us about our love. I find it amazing what God can do. :)

Well I hope you enjoyed this. Have a great night. I will! I hope God blesses you in some way as you read this.

When you call on Jesus

So, this blog should be long, but we will see.
So, where do I begin. Christmas, Exodus.. It was a nice trip. Long, but I actually enjoyed the time. We got nice gifts. A Wii, towels, plate set, spiderman movies and a few more things. It was nice, like I said. Not as bad as I thought it would be. I went Iceskating with my bestie from Ga. It was only my second time. I fail. It was so funny. I had a great time with Matthew, during this trip,. We had our moments, but everyone does, right?

2010 we started it out pretty good. Together, alone, watching Spiderman part one. I'd had never seen it. Pretty cool, but shhh... don't tell Matthew I said that... lol.  We got some Arbor Mist and drunk some right before Midnight, lets just say, wine.. Not my thing. I like mixed drinks beter. LOL! I think Matthew does too. Also, When we got back to Wichita Falls, we came into snow. It was awesome. I got pictures, Just haven't put them on facebook yet. Which since Matthew is back at his dorm, I will be able to do that soon. :)

Also, we might be fostering a cat. How awesome is that? It would give me something to do. Give me something to love on. I didn't know that you could even do that. But I guess you can. YAY! I hope that people get back with me soon, on it.

Also, I think I might look for a part time job. Like at the daycare on base, or the BX or go to the Mall and see if anyone needs some part time help. I think it would be good for me. Get out of the apartment. Plus, I feel like I'm suppose to get one. I just feel it. I've felt it for a while now, Just haven't wanted to realize it. I don't want to get one,  but it might be good for me.

On a second note. Gosh the people that get on my last nerves. Right now it's my mom. She's being what I hate to say.. Is a witch with a Captial B. Very sad to say. She's making a big deal over nothing. She's blowing up over something that is nothing. It really upsets me. Like really upsets me... Even though it shouldn't. Because she always does this. And it's every other year., she can't make up her mind if she likes me, or not, if she wants to stay married to my dad or not, she lives in her own little world, and she thinks it's ok to act this way. I wish I could tell her this, but I can't. I could try and talk some sence into her, but Matthew and I already know how it will go. This is a yearly thing Matthew and I have to go through. She'll get my dad involved and he loves her so much that he'll take her side, she'll cry and he wont like us, and then she'll screw him over and leave him, and he'll be upset, and Matthew and wont be able to rescue him, because we will be in Mo. I say if he hasn't learned by now, he's not going to learn. Gosh! I had to go offline on order for her to leave me alone. I can't believe she wants to start this. Only because I told her I went over my minutes by talking to her. I went over 100 minutes because of her. And we can't afford the bill now., But does she care? I guess not! I can't believe that she's acting like this. She aggervates me very much. I don't need her doing this. I mean She wanted to bring up the fact that we don't have money and that I always use the excuse that we don't have money. Well guess what? -Newsflash-  We don't have any money. The things that we buy/bills are Have to pay bills reguarldess if we have the money or not. We need food to eat with. We are getting better with our money. We still have spurs everyone now and again, but we are getting better. Making ourselves realize that, hey we are moving in 3 paychecks to MO. We gotta strighten up. Ya know?  Well thats enough with that.

My title really means a lot right now. I need to call on Jesus. I know that he's the only one that can help me right now. If you haven't heard the song, you should look it up. It's really good. Nicloe C. Mullen sings it, I think. Well thoughts/advice would be nice.