Don't Blink

I'm sitting here, with not much on my mind. Well I guess it's more then I lead on the be. Matthew got his orders. Which is awesome. I am so thankful for that. It's a blessing in itself. Now I have to get a copy of them, and send it to the Housing office at Whiteman. Which hopefully I can get a copy tomorrow, and send it off Monday. That will be awesome.

Things seem to be turning around. It's all in how positive, and how blessed you consider yourself. I think I am very blessed. I know that God is looking out for Matthew and myself. I have been going through a storm lately, and not wanting to come to the realization. I haven't told Matthew, I think he might already know. I know that God tells him things, without me having to speak a word. I love that God tells Matthew things without me having to say anything. It helps, because Matthew will come to me, and just know what to say, and know what to do. God is a wonderful thing to have in your life. Without him, your lost, and walking in complete darkness.  I would hate for some people that I know to have a life without the man upstairs.... Anyways...

So, I have a lot to do. And only a month to do it in. I have to get boxes. Make room in the car, clean the car, save money, pay bills, cook, clean, and somewhere breath. I know that I will manage. I will be fine. I know that I have family and wonderful friends to get me to smile, and help me out. I just feel like it's taken forever for us to get to this point, and I know that in the blink of an eye we are going to be in Mo. Either on base, or in some house, we don't know anyone at this base. Yes, I've made friends on facebook. And I'm greatful for them, but there husband's are way ahead of Matthew and I. I want some friends that are going through the same thing, that we are. (I'm sure most of my readers undestand this)

                        Tech School for Me:

I know that Matthew and I are very blessed, because it's only been 4 months since BMT and we are almost at our Duty Station. I know it takes some people over 2 years. Some, may only take 4 months. We still have one more month, and praise God for that. I feel like Tech School has been nothing but hell. I know it's tested My Faith many times, and I know I have failed some of those tests'. I'm not proud of that, but I can't sit here and cry about it. It will get me no where. I can't do that. You have to tell yourself Your going to get it next time, Ask God to forgive you, and move on from your mistake. The tounge is the most powerful thing on you. You can choose to speak life or death into your situation: Marriage, friendship, family, money problems, You name it. Since we have been here, I haven't been so positive. I've hated not having money to blow, or to spend freely, and since I have shown God that I can't be positive and responsible he has taken the extra money away. I'm finally realizing that. It's about time. :) But Tech School for me has been a learning class for me. This is like our first year being on our own. And God threw us out here in Texas, no family, and making us learn. Which now that I think about it, I'm glad we are learning this way. So, Tech School, Thank you. :) Now on to something different.... Sorry... Just trying to pass a lesson on..

What I think of Myself.

I know that some of my friends call me lucky, positive, blessed... ect., I consdier myself blessed. Thats all. And sometimes, I think of myself as being positive. I never consider myself lucky. I don't believe in luck. Also, I think I am just a girl, who is in love with a man so wonderful. I don't think I deserve him sometimes. I don't think I'm really smart, and I don't think I'm pretty. I don't think I deserve the friends that I have. I think I can sing.. I love to sing. But when I really think about I don't think people like my voice. I used to want to be a singer, and I still do, sorta, but it's just a dream now. I think I would be a great model. But I'm scared to try. I think My boobs are to big, but would hate if something ever happened to them. I don't think my hair grows. It just falls out. I think my fingers are to big. I think have beautiful eyes. I don't like my face. I want to have kids, but I'm so scared of needles, that I think I may never be able to have kids. But I know one thing. That God made me the way he wanted to. He took his wonderful time to make me, and I know I shouldn't complain about God's work.

This song is Don't Blink By Kenny Chesney. Matthew and I love this song. And it seems to fit the things that I'm feeling.

I turned on the evening news

Saw an old man being interviewed

Turning a hundred and two today

Asked him what's the secret to life

He looked up from his old pipe

Laughed and said "All I can say is ."

Don't Blink

just like that you're six years old and you take a nap and you

Wake up and you're twenty-five and your high school sweetheart becomes your wife

Don't blink

just might miss your babies growin' like mine did

Turning into moms and dads; next thing you know your better half

of fifty years is there in bed> And you're praying God takes you instead

Trust me friend, one hundred years goes faster than you think

So don't Blink

I was glued to my tv when it looked like he looked at me and said

"Best start putting first things first."

Cause when your hour glass runs out of sand

You can't flip it over and start again

Take every breath God gives you for what it's worth

Don't Blink

just like that you're six years old and you take a nap and you

Wake up and you're twenty-five and your high school sweetheart becomes your wife

Don't blink

just might miss your babies growin' like mine did

Turning into moms and dads next thing you know your better half

of fifty years is there in bed

And you're praying God takes you instead

Trust me friend, a hundred years goes faster than you think

So don't blink

So I've been tryin' to slow it down

I've been tryin' to take it in

In this here today, gone tomorrow world we're livin' in

Don't Blink

just like that you're six years old and you take a nap and ya'

Wake up and you're twenty-five and your high school sweetheart becomes your wife

Don't Blink

just might miss your babies growin' like mine did

Turning into moms and dads; next thing you know your better half

of fifty years is there in bed

And you're praying God takes you instead

Trust me friend, a hundred years goes faster than you think

So Don't Blink

No, don't blink

don't blink

life goes faster than you think

so don't blink

don't blink

life goes faster than you think

don't blink

life goes faster than you think

Just because something good ends doesn't mean something better won't begin.